It's my birthday, and I just have to reflect on the goodness of God. Wow. Sometimes that's all I can say. I mean, despite all the difficulties in my life, He has been there with me through it all. He has constantly proven himself faithful whether I trust him or not. He has filled me, changed me, used me. I am so grateful. But I know I don't express it enough. I am alive for a reason. I have lived to see another year for a reason. Life is a journey of discovering what that reason is and acting on it. I want God to do so much through my life. For this to happen I've got to let him keep changing me and leading me through the waters and the fire and the rain and the sunshine. But isn't life exciting? I mean, gosh, I want to live to the fullest, for this is what God has for me. And then, I want to impart that life to others. I may not do this all the time, but it's what I want, and it's what is possible. Be blessed, and live fully!

The song of my heart..at least part of it!

To be put to music...

You've rocked me Lord
I can't be bored
You helped me soar
And now I'm sure

That I'm in love
In love with one who's up above
I'm so full
To the top
I'm overflowing
God, this rocks!
Don't let it stop
I want all you've got!

For my birthday, Lord
Do you know what I want?
I want you,
And everthing
You have to give
For this is why I live.

I want to give
Away all that you've given me
So fill my days
With your praise
I'll sing for you
I'll dance with you
Until everything around me
Becomes new

I love you!

Do you ever just feel like giving up? Like you just can't live this life you've committed yourself to living? I do, all the time. But I can't. I can't. There is something that makes me hold on, and I cannot bring myself to give up, not when I see what's at stake, not when I remember who I am and how God has loved me and even used me. And because He wants to use me more, because He needs to use me right now, I just can't give up. Hold on. Hold on. He'll pull you through when you can't move, when you feel like a failure. Just know that He sees you differently. He holds your tears, He receives your repentance. His love overshadows all of that. If only we could see. Let's hold on long enough to see Him come through. Because He does, time and time again. I love you Lord...

Spontaneous 2

So, I was just sitting down to write some more of my book, and I felt like God wanted me to write a blog instead. It has been a while. I have been listening lately to the soundtrack from "Passion of the Christ." It's incredible how music can add power to something. It inspires me to write, I get amazing vived pictures in my head that give me the chills. I mean, it's not all music; it's definitely God, but I love how he uses things like that. He combines all our gifts. Think about what God could do if all the Christians were to truly recognize their potential and believe what God has called them to do and given them the gift for! If we merged all our God-given gifts and did not restrain ourselves, it's hard to imagine what would happen--some kind of explosion of glory, power, love, and revival I suppose. What if we (just the Christians--those who believe in God as their savior) were to live life not aware of ourselves? Like we jus follow Jesus and do what he says and speak what he speaks and obey every prompting he puts on our hearts because we just love him and we really don't care about ourselves? What if we were to live for him to the point of death because he is all we cared about? What if this is not just all a what if? If we can imagine it, why can't it happen? We all know we were meant to live for so much more. What if so much more means letting go and just being swept away by God into whatever he is doing? Giving up control. Talk about true freedom! What could happen to our world if we began to live this way? Whoa...